i am tired of social media. not the part where i can stay connected with family and friends at any minute. i'm tired of the mindless scrolling. of wondering what people are gonna think of me. do they like me? will they book? is that one in a million person gonna come and cancel me? i'm over it. if you're here, you're here cause you like me.
there's this reoccurring thought in my head, where i tell myself "start a blog and treat it like tumblr and twitter". tumblr was a fave during my teenage years (and if anyone ever wants to take a gander at my old tumblr, i have tons of aesthetic inspiration) and twitter has been ever-present in my life. i like the short form. and i like that i can make this whatever i want. or nothing at all. ai also can't replicate how i think and i love that i am real and ai isn't <3
i am moving away from trying to post all of my thoughts in a well-thought-out caption on instagram; it gives me so much anxiety. cause sometimes i just like to ramble!! i ramble in real life! i was the kid in english class who had the shittiest scribbled-out brainstorm, but whose creative papers got read back to the class. i think about that a lot. i ramble and i stutter cause my brain moves a million miles a second, my mouth cant catch up, and by the time my mouth is ready to speak, i've entirely forgotten what i have to say. when i can write things out and a) shitpost, b) write in short form, or c) give myself time (...and grace) to think it all out, revisit it, then post, that's when things get good.
anyway, enough ranting. this is my why. and cause sometimes i just have a lot to share and i get overwhelmed at the thought of instagram. the posting. the captions. the insights. the editing. the carousels. the reels.theengagementsthepoststheimpostersyndromethelikesthetimeittakesfromme.
love,
bri <3
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